So it has officially begun. My room has just my bed and my (soon to be sold) furniture in it. Boxes have replaced framed pictures, the Goodwill pile has grown to a carload+ and the walls are being cleaned– along with everything else. In the next 2 weeks I will complete the move out process and get rid of some stuff, send some stuff home with my mom to be stored for the year and the remainder will go to my aunts house for the last few weeks in Santa Barbara.
This is harder than I thought.
The goodbyes have begun, and I got to start with maybe the hardest one (Mandy I love you and really can’t thank you enough for the friend you have been to me and the memories we have made!.. can’t wait to make more at Meg’s wedding and Christmas 2009!). I have been reading blogs of teams as they take off and it has never really been real, but now it is, it is my turn to say goodbye to people here and say hello to my teammates and begin the next chapter of my life, and take the next step in my relationship with God.
These next 2 weeks before training camp are going to be a time of reflection on the last few years and preparing for the the Race. Running,hiking with my pack, reading the required books, spending time in the Word, praying, fasting, talking with friends, supporters and all those potential supporters out there, packing up the rest of my stuff, moving, cleaning, and oh so much more. I am actually kind of excited. I feel like God has given me a gift with this time, as much as it hurts right now; I need it to prepare for the race, focus on Him- not on me.
I’m ready God, reveal yourself to me. I am ready to be broken, I’m scared but I know you will never leave me. You are teaching me something through this, as much as change is hard it is also good. You have laid a path for me and those I love, and we follow it with you. You are our protection and comfort. I love you Lord, teach me, mold me, break me and hold me as I seek you. ~Amen
