As the race
draws to an end I keep getting the question, “what will you do now?”
And I have
to say nothing upsets me more. First of all because I honestly have NO CLUE, second because I feel as though I am supposed to come back to the States and get a 9 to
5, buy a car, find a cute little house in the suburbs, and marry dentist. And
honestly I have to say nothing depresses me more. And I am not saying anything
bad about people who have those things and love that life, but it’s just not
for me. I have been thinking a lot lately; “why would the goal of life be to
work as hard as you can, to get as much money as you can, to have all of these
material things that never fully satisfy you, and all while still making enough
money so that you can save up to retire and live off that money until you DIE?”
Then not to mention if you are a
Christian living that lifestyle, you get to throw on top of all that all of
these extra rules, which REALLY makes life no fun. So you have to go to church
on Sundays and if the church ever does anything you have to rush to it. Even
though you don’t really want to go and be angry while you’re there because you
have worked so much that you are tired and you don’t like the people there
anyways because they talk about you and you talk about them. So you’re really
bitter about the whole Christian thing anyway so you never pray because you
don’t feel close to God because these rules suck, working sucks, and people who
claim to be Christians suck.
So then you
doubt if there really even is a God. Because if He’s so great and mighty, where
is HE? What is He doing? And what’s the reasoning?
But people
HE wants more than that for His children! He wants us to sell our crap.
Material things are burdens anyway! Go have fun with orphans. Go love someone
who has no one to love. Go see and ENJOY his creation. Experience Him. Love. Have fun. Live on the edge…… if you die young you just get to see HIM sooner anyways 🙂
