I was listening to Christian radio the other day and they were talking about dangerous prayers- prayers that are a challenge for us, something that we would like to have/see done, but we don’t really want it to happen because it poses a threat on our everyday lives and the way we live them. Well, ever since I heard this story about a couple who prayed the dangerous prayer “to have their hearts break, for the things that make God’s heart break” it’s been on my mind, day and night. They wanted to feel what God felt for everyone around them, they wanted to cry for those who were lost and they wanted to literally hurt for those who were hurting, whether spiritual or physical. And ever since I heard this story God has been pushing me to pray my dangerous prayer, but I literally didn’t know what prayer I was supposed to pray? I mean literally, I thought, come on God, I am going on the World Race, giving up a year of my life, my comfort, my relationships, my cozy church, what more could He be asking me to give up or feel? I do feel the pain in those around me and I do try to help and be a friend to everyone I can, that is the reason I’m going on this trip… I’ve pretty much got it all together here people, just kidding but that’s really kind of how I felt. And how crazy I was to think so highly of myself. God has pushed me further into him and has challenged me to pray for Love. As crazy as it sounds, love, a deeper love than I’ve ever known, to love Him, to love the people I come into contact with everyday. To literally feel Love for God and People like never before, not just going through the motions but actually feeling passion for both. This is serious for me, because if anyone knows me, you know I am very surfacey (yep, made that word up). I only want the surface of you and me, but I’m tired of that and so is God……………. so here goes everything, with my dangerous prayer…….
