I found myself really missing the kids of Sarah's Covenant Home (SCH) this week.
Like a lot.
So much so that I wanted make plans to be back there from September-December as a foster mom.
While other plans for September-December were being made, I found myself quietly pray, "January. Please God, have someone speak January over me. As in, it is okay to postpone my current plans to January so that I can go back to SCH till December." After silently praying this pray for couple days, and no one telling me January, I sat on my bed asking God for a clear answer.
Then I opened the devotional, "Jesus Calling." But rather than reading the devotional for that day, I read the one that I had randomly opened up to, August 23rd.
Here was the gist of it:
"Entrust your loved ones to me; release them into my protective care. They are much safer with me than in your clinging hands… I detest idolatry, even in the form of parental love… When you release loved ones to Me, you are free to cling to my hand. As you entrust others into myy care, I am free to shower blessings on them. My presence ail go with them wherever they go, and I will give them rest… Watch and see what I will do."
Each SCH kid deserves a foster mom. I have kept up with all of my friend's blogs (she is currently a foster mom at SCH) and what she is doing for those kiddos is absolutely incredible. And needed. And deserved. Jodi is supposed to move into an apartment with 6 other little girls and their ayahs. I would go be their foster mom in a heartbeat. But God is telling me to "entrust my loved ones to him." He is reminding me that Jodi isn't mine. She is His. They are all His kids.
God has different plans for this season of my life. I trust that He will call others to go be foster moms and dad's to those amazing kiddos. I trust that He will take care of His kids. Yesterday, I was upset because He was saying no to my prayer to go back. Today, I am choosing to be thankful. Thankful for getting to volunteer TWICE at SCH. Thankful to have been apart of that part of God's kingdom TWICE. Those kids blessed me more than I could ever bless them. It breaks my heart not to be loving on them right now, but I know their Heavenly Father loves them. He will never abandon or forsake them.
My future, and their futures, are in God's hands.
