At my final debrief in May, I found out I didn’t get a youth ministry job that I wanted. That day, I felt so lost. I had no idea what my future looked like. I had no idea what I was supposed to do after the race. Finally, I threw up my hands and said: “God, do whatever You want with my life. Absolutely WHATEVER. I don’t care what it is. You dream bigger and better than me, so go for it.” I followed that prayer up with, “Use India to flip my life upside down. Don’t you dare call me back there long term (longer than six months), but use my second time at SCH to change my life.”
That day, I began to realize that God had given me a unique set of gifts of talents. I started to get the feeling that God was on the verge of something big- that He was going to take all of those gifts and talents and put them to use in a real cool way that I would’ve never imagined. I started to get excited. I went back to SCH and God showed me a lot about myself through Jodi. And He began to break my heart for the rest of the kids at SCH. I began to fall in a love with all of them. And God kept reminding me that something new was on the horizon.
And then I got home. And I started to freak out again. I knew in my heart that I was supposed to CGA, but my flesh and pride were screaming “No!”
Needless to say, God got me to Georgia. And as soon as I got here, I started to see the pieces start coming together. Gifts that I always had but never really used were starting to be used. Talents that I never knew were talents were starting to be realized.
This was not the season I expected. And I confess, I still fail at choosing in EVERYDAY. There are days I fall short. There are days that I don’t choose God first. But I am so grateful for His grace. I am so thankful that my Abba is choosing me to be His co-laborer. He has designed me to be a part of His kingdom. To love the orphan. To be a voice for the voiceless.
God is moving in this season at CGA. He is preparing me to move. He is preparing me, building my character, a character worthy of the calling He has given me.
I still need $900 to finish this season. Will you support me in this? Will you support the beginnings of a new ministry? If it is where God is leading you, please click on the “Support Me” button to donate.
Thank you and God Bless! Please continue to follow me on this crazy journey.
