Hey everyone! I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to write a blog about last month. Honestly, I didn’t know where to start. I’m still not too sure. I’m stepping out in faith and trusting that God will tell me what to write. After my super busy month in Thailand, Malaysia was a blessing from the Lord. We were partnered with a family who was trying to be God’s light in a country where it’s illegal to talk to the majority of the people about Jesus. To protect their ministry, I won’t share too many specifics on their identity or works. Our team would assist them with their ministry in the morning and then usually had the afternoons free. Sometimes we would have projects we would be working on outside of ministry, but for the most part, we had a LOT of free time. Which was exactly what our team needed! I used that time to grow closer to the Lord. I spent a lot of my time reading my Bible, listening to sermons and worship music….and (you caught me) watching movies. And while it might sound like one of the most uneventful months ever, it was actually one where I saw the Lord do the most.
I don’t know where you stand on your opinion of the supernatural aspect of Christianity. Honestly, at the beginning of the year, I was a HUGE sceptic. I was raised to believe that things like spiritual gifts were things that the Lord only gave to the apostles to help start the church after Jesus ascended to heaven. But last month, I experienced things and saw things that have completely changed my opinion on the matter. I now believe that God still uses these supernatural things to show His children His love for them and to bring them closer to Him. If I were to write about every crazy thing that I saw that month, we would be here all day. If you have any questions, feel free to message me and ask. But to sum it up, I saw people delivered of demons and speak in languages that they didn’t know 5 minutes prior. I heard voices that didn’t belong to people of this earth and felt the presence of evil. But I also felt presence of the Lord, which was so holy, it was almost unbearable. More importantly, I experienced the freedom that only Jesus Christ can offer. Struggles that had burdened me for years were replaced with the biggest sense of peace. Lies that Satan had spoken over me my entire life were replaced with truths from the Lord.
I know that this must sound like the vaguest blog ever. I recognize that. But I honestly don’t know how to explain it to you. How do I explain to you that my entire life I felt that I was unlovable, only to finally be freed of that lie and understand that there is a hole in God’s heart that only I can fill? That my whole life I felt invisible, only to now understand that I am a woman of value? That my entire life I felt weak, only to now know that the Lord is calling me to lead? That my whole life I felt unwanted, only to now know that the Lord fights for me and loves me with an unexplainable passion? There are no words. And the ones I have used, don’t do these revelations justice. But if you’re reading this, and have ever felt burdened or worthless, please feel free to message me. I would LOVE to tell you in more detail about how I found peace through accepting the freedom that the Lord so freely gives.
