One of my favorite worship songs right now is called “Oceans” by Hillsong. My favorite verse is:
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior“
When I first heard that verse, I craved it. I craved a life where I would trust God so completely, that I would let Him lead me out onto the waters, wherever He would call me. I prayed for that life. A life where I was completely dependent on God. Haha yeaaaa….be careful what you pray for!
So you may or may not know this about me, but I’m a planner. I love plans. I love feeling like I know what’s going to happen and that I have some type of control over my future. Funny thing though – my plans, no matter how beautifully detailed and precise I might think they are, are not always what God has envisioned for my life.
Flashback to 2 months ago….
2 months ago, when asked “What are your plans after graduation?” I would respond with the same answer: “Keep working as an EMT until I get accepted into PA school.” That had been my plan for years. Actually, I thought this was mine and God’s plan. For years now I have felt God pointing me towards a future in medical missions. But God’s a funny guy….and He apparently never forgets a prayer. While I still feel that God wants me to pursue medicine, shortly after graduation, I encountered several roadblocks in my previously flawless plan. After a temporary freakout, I took a deep breath, and talked to God. You see, in my experience, when my plans don’t seem to be working out, it’s usually because God has something different (and usually, better) in store for me. After much prayer, I felt God tell me (in so many words) “Well, you wanted to walk on the waters – let’s go!”
So here I am. Taking the CRAZIEST leap of faith that I’ve ever taken. I’m chucking my plan out the window and crawling out of my boat. I’m grabbing God’s hand (or rather, gripping it extremely tight) and walking “deeper than my feet could ever wander.” In January, I will be leaving on a trip called the World Race. I will be traveling to 11 different countries in 11 months and spreading God’s love along the way. I have roughly $16,000 to raise and I can use all the help I can get – whether it be financially, spiritually or emotionally. I’m excited for what this coming year has to offer and I can’t wait to see what God has in store!
I will be posting more information on this blog about fundraising opportunities, prayer request and other updates about my journey. I will also use this blog to post updates once I am on my trip as well! So stay tuned!
