Today isn’t fun. Today it’s been hard to trust that the reasons I’m leaving are important enough to say goodbye to my baby nephew, my precious niece, and my ridiculously awesome little brother. That this calling God placed on my life will be worth the hurt I’m dealing with right now. But I KNOW that it is, I know that God is good and He desires to give us good gifts(Matthew 7:11). That if I love Him the way I say I do then I will be obedient to His voice. But it’s not easy, not today.
So many times I’ve thought,
“Lord, I just can’t go, I’m sorry, but I just can’t”
…about this time He reminds me gently that He is very aware that I surely couldn’t if I keep trying to do it alone. He reminds me to "Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."-Joshua 1:9. He reminds me that He is going before me, He will continue to work in and through me currently, and He will be here with the people I love after I leave. I have to, and do, believe that by leaving I will be serving my family and friends here in the states as well as whoever the Lord has planned for me along the way,
"By this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God and obey his commandments. And his commandments are not burdensome. For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world–our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world except the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?".
So I go…
Prayers for my family and I tomorrow as we say our “see ya laters”. As difficult as it was to say good-bye to my friends last week, I know that tomorrow will be even tougher, especially for my mom and little brother Daniel. Please pray that they would be comforted and surrounded by His peace.
Next time I write I'll be in Quito, Ecuador!!(this still hasn't quite set in yet)
Love,
Lindsey
