But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body to be like his glorious body, by the power than enables him even to subject all things to himself.
Philippians 3: 20-21
(I have so much love for this little book of the Bible)
I need to hear this truth, everyday, but for some reason today especially. I am panicking, about funds, about leaving my family, about living without so many of the comforts I take for granted. Maybe panic is too strong a word, but I am feeling incredibly nervous about this journey that is coming ever nearer, and while I know, I KNOW, that this is God's will and plan for me and I should be able to rest in that but I can't seem to.
He can subject all things to himself…my nervousness, my fundraising, everything. He is all powerful and He is good. I don't want to worry, and I know that I can "cast all my anxieties on Him because He cares for me" but I am selfish with my problems. I don't like to share them, I want to look at them, study them, fix them, and move on. So maybe this nervousness is a good thing, maybe its a way of showing me just how much I can't do and how perfectly competent He is to manage all my issues, without my help. But it doesn't mean I have to like it, I know I have a long way to go in the journey of "forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus" Philippians 3:13-14.
On Good Friday I attended a simulcast of Secret Church, a six hour Bible study time hosted by David Platt(author of the book Radical, if you haven't read it I highly recommend it). This was a time of intense study, and growth for me and for many others. David went through the aspects of salvation, what it means to be adopted into the family of Christ, to become a child of God. I want to live this out and even in the midst of my day of panic I can't wait to begin this journey to bring His message of salvation to His children around the world.
In two months I will be leaving everything and everyone behind, and I will be striving towards what is ahead. Two months, crazy close.
Lindsey
