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Team changes.
I make myself sit and process after peeing about 3 times and shaking with nerves. I was praying for peace and praying for joy in this new season. I was praying that I can bring things from my old teammates to my new team. I prayed that I could see HIS face in my team.
I open the envelope.
Amanda
Emily
Nicole
Jess L
Kierra
Mya
Lindsay
I sit and begin to process. Overwhelming peace and joy. I’m sad to not be with my gals-but I can see that this team is going to teach me so much.
“You’re Beautiful” begins to play.
This song is near to my heart because it is one of the first worship songs I knew and loved. We sang it during Peru training and in Peru (where I met Jesus). I heard it for the first time in a long time yesterday.
The first lyrics are “I see your face in every sunrise.”
Jesus’ face.
I felt an overwhelming love when this song began to play. I see Jesus in sunrises and flowers. All creation really. Especially His people.
I was praying to see Him in my new teammates. And immediately I began to see Him in them. I don’t know them all super well yet-but I know they are going to teach me so much. Love me so well. Push me to be better.
This transition is going to be hard. Challenging. But so fruitful.
Jesus, thank you for peace and joy. I’m so scared but I’m so excited for this next season with these gals.
Thank you.
There is a time to mourn and a time to dance.
Right now seems like a time for both. Mourning my Beloved Daughters, but dancing beside these new gals who I have the pleasure of doing life with for the next few months.
Jesus-I see your face in them. Already.
