This specific blog series was meant to be an outlet for me to share all the ways God has destroyed the tiny box I’ve put Him in during my life. I came on the Race a skeptic, believing I had yet to witness any miracles nor really understanding what it meant to be filled with the Spirit. Now, after 8 months on the field, He’s shattered that box many times. But my understanding of the Spirit’s power in my life has only just begun.
Picture Team Us in Botswana – 7 beautiful women of God (including our squad leader, Richelle) – as we sit down to have a mid-month debrief. We all knew some tension was brewing. We all had things on our hearts to share, be it good or bad. I myself went into the meeting with some of my own frustrations. I had no clue where to start, how to help foster any healing that needed to happen. Frankly, I didn’t even really want to be there. So I did the only thing in my power to do: I prayed. I asked God to give me His heart for my teammates and to speak through me. And He showed up, big time. (We affectionately refer to that night as our “come to Jesus” night)
That night in Botswana was probably the first time in my life where I gave the Spirit control. I realized my complete need for Him and also trusted Him to work. Since then there have been other moments where it could’ve only been His words coming out of my mouth, His heart pouring out from my lips. He’s given me a new boldness and a new confidence I can’t even fully explain.
I came on the Race a self-proclaimed introvert, proud of my quietness and my solemn nature. Now I joke with my squad I plan to share/talk so much they’ll have to beg me to be quiet by the end of this. Mind you, there’s nothing wrong with being quiet; God created me for a unique purpose. But the passion He’s put inside me is meant to be shared, His Spirit in me is meant to be seen.
I may be going back in 3 months to the same home I grew up in, with people I’ve known for years. But I know they’ve changed. And I am certain I have too.
I am no longer a skeptic. I no longer doubt the Holy Spirit’s power. I’ve realized His power has always been available to me, I just needed to accept it.
I can’t wait to see what He does next!
“being confident in this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Philippians 1:6
