It is funny how much reflecting I have done as I’ve prepared for this trip. I didn’t think I would be so flooded with my past with something so exciting ahead. But God has revealed to me so many new insights into my history and brought many things to light that I’ve needed to let go of. I’ve needed to let go of ideals I’ve clung to about how my life should pan out, and misconceptions about people I’ve loved. Misconceptions about how I saw God and his role in my life and most importantly I’ve had to let go of an identity that was formed and shaped by a past of broken relationships, lies from angry people and the harsh backwardness of this world. I never realized what I was holding on to until I had to let it go.
As I sit here in New York City, preparing tomorrow to embark upon the adventure of a lifetime, I recognize that I HAVE totally let go. It has been a journey but I am FINISHED living life on my selfish terms and expecting God’s stamp of approval. I have handed the reigns over to my Creator and will be living according to His agenda and according to His perfect purpose for my life.
I will go wherever the Lord leads and seek my true identity from Him, my redeemer, and NOT from a world that doesn’t know me.
I will serve those who need Him wherever that may be for the rest of my life, and this is where I start.
I am jumping in. Into my destiny.
