I have been pondering the word “trust” a lot
lately. What it means to trust. Take courage
if you are reading this and feel you have been going through a season
of trust issues, loss, financial troubles, health issues, relational hardship, or crazy amounts of stress lately…you are not alone! Let’s just say it has not been the easiest few months of my life for each and every reason listed above whether fabricated in my mind or a real issue I had to face. And let me just say I used to pride myself in being self sufficient and things coming easy to me. Wow, has my paradigm shifted during this season of complete brokenness. First, I have realized that just because I am broken does not mean people are less attracted to me. In fact, I have formed some of the most amazing friendships and been healed in ways I never thought imaginable. Secondly, God provides in ways I never thought imaginable…. yet the amount of criticism and unforeseen judgment insued during this painful transition has only given me more passion to stand up for those who are going through transitions themselves. I want to be a voice in the wilderness reminding people that we were never meant to do this life alone!!
lately. What it means to trust. Take courageif you are reading this and feel you have been going through a season
of trust issues, loss, financial troubles, health issues, relational hardship, or crazy amounts of stress lately…you are not alone! Let’s just say it has not been the easiest few months of my life for each and every reason listed above whether fabricated in my mind or a real issue I had to face. And let me just say I used to pride myself in being self sufficient and things coming easy to me. Wow, has my paradigm shifted during this season of complete brokenness. First, I have realized that just because I am broken does not mean people are less attracted to me. In fact, I have formed some of the most amazing friendships and been healed in ways I never thought imaginable. Secondly, God provides in ways I never thought imaginable…. yet the amount of criticism and unforeseen judgment insued during this painful transition has only given me more passion to stand up for those who are going through transitions themselves. I want to be a voice in the wilderness reminding people that we were never meant to do this life alone!!
I suppose when life throws twists, we have two choices, to pull ourselves up by our bootstraps and make it on our own OR allow those around us into our weakness and see the miraculous way God works in our lack. I find this such an oxymoron and yet the one of the many profound secrets of being a Christ follower, that of trust.
As I return back states side, people often ask me if it is refreshing to be home due to the comforts of food, warmth or convenience but time and time again, I find it a challenge….why….because of the lack of emphasis we put on the reality that we are broken people and that we need to learn to trust God and others. This is a secret of many 
developing countries and their amazing testimony of both the miraculous events as well as undying faith is their ability to trust in the God who loved them in their confusion, lack and loss. God never promised to take away life’s challenges, but He promised to be with us in the midst of them! I have found that to be one of the greatest mysteries during this time of adjustment back west….that both God and some amazing individuals in my life have chosen to walk beside me in this time of lack, when I thought I had very little to give, they gave to me sacrificially! I can not begin to express the amount of gratitude and love I have in these friendships…. friendships born in trust.
developing countries and their amazing testimony of both the miraculous events as well as undying faith is their ability to trust in the God who loved them in their confusion, lack and loss. God never promised to take away life’s challenges, but He promised to be with us in the midst of them! I have found that to be one of the greatest mysteries during this time of adjustment back west….that both God and some amazing individuals in my life have chosen to walk beside me in this time of lack, when I thought I had very little to give, they gave to me sacrificially! I can not begin to express the amount of gratitude and love I have in these friendships…. friendships born in trust. Trust is not an easy path to take, for it is vulnerable, unknown and often requires a “yes” regardless of the desired outcome. I am finding out that I can try to do things on my own, or I can learn to trust God and those people around me to be a resource to me in my times of need. Then, when the time comes, I am strengthened to be a resource for others!
I finally feel like me again but this challenging period of transition has only made me more passionate for the importance of people to be transparent, know their loved no matter what and accept that we WILL go through deserts, but that does not mean we have to do it alone. I am excited to see what the future holds as Dave and I continue to walk this faith journey and see where God leads us and
how He will use us to serve those around us. I love the fact I serve a Father in heaven who knows my best interest and will never leave me or forsake me, even if I experience trials at times. Paul explains it quite well in Romans…”But we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.
And hope does not disappoint us.” ~Romans 5:3-5 Why? Because we put our hope and trust in God. This is why in this life I have no choice but to trust. For me, there is no other logical way to navigate these unpredictable waters of life then by the captain’s course.
how He will use us to serve those around us. I love the fact I serve a Father in heaven who knows my best interest and will never leave me or forsake me, even if I experience trials at times. Paul explains it quite well in Romans…”But we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us.” ~Romans 5:3-5 Why? Because we put our hope and trust in God. This is why in this life I have no choice but to trust. For me, there is no other logical way to navigate these unpredictable waters of life then by the captain’s course.
