The past few days have been difficult. As I prepare for the race, Satan is using every opportunity to distract me and make me question why I am going. Today as I was walking through Target as I was waiting for my film to be developed, I just questioned God.
What am I suppose to do?
Is this really what you want me to be doing?
What about finances?
What about family?
What’s going to happen when I get back?
Then Satan began putting his thoughts in my head.
You need to pay off student loans. God has blessed you with the ability to act so you need to stay here in LA and pursue that. Your niece and nephew are growing up fast, maybe you should move back home and spend time with your family. Family is important.
Then I just talked to God.
God I know you have called me to do this. Give me the
Strength to fight off them enemy, and keep putting
People in my life to encourage and
Uplift me, for these are difficult times
As I continued to pray at the checkout counter a little boy walked with his mother and he was singing,
“He’s got the whole world in His hands
He’s got the whole world in His hands…”
At that moment, I fought back every bit of emotion in me not to just breakdown and cry in the middle of Target. There I stood asking God for encouragement and he gives me a four-year old boy, holding his mother’s hand, and letting me know that, not only am I safe, but so is the whole world in God’s hands.
How easily I had forgotten.
Thank you Lord. Thank you for always being there; for your reassurance, for your love, for keeping us tenderly in your hands. Thank you for reminding me about having child-like faith. I know you have called me and so I will go. Battles with Satan are a guarantee of life. When we are a threat he is at his strongest, but through you we are victorious. Praise be to God who armor has been placed on me! I will go where you send me.
