Consumed by drowsiness and distracted by life I sit down to lunch.
This past week, nature and I have been at odds. I have learned that my body is a harvesting ground for mosquitoes and bed bugs. Itching my skin is a new norm for me. Restless nights of sleep are a norm as well. Taking Benadryl daily to combat the reactions is normal as well. My afternoons are packed with naps. Mostly because I cannot keep my eyes open long enough to be productive at anything. (The effects of the Benadryl are quick and strong.)
We have been blessed this past month to rest. To be at a place where we weren’t needed around the clock, and we could actually rest and spend time with the Lord. Four months in and you need some rest here on the race. Rest is needed and it is appreciated when you get it. Like Benadryl though it can cause you to enter into a lethargic mentality thinking you need more rest then what you actually need. You awake from your rest knowing that you can awake and be productive, but more rest sounds more appetizing then any form of movement.
The thing about rest here in Africa is that if you take too long in your down time you end up in a pool of your own sweat. Then you are uncomfortable. Then you no longer want to rest, or be productive, you are just miserable. You look for direction, but you lack motivation. You are stagnate. This is the worse place to be in. Moving in no direction is worse then moving in the wrong direction. Once I move my course can be more easily corrected. I can tell if I am going in the right or wrong direction once I get going.
The effects of the Benadryl are strong. I don’t notice them until I stop moving. Once I am in one place for 30 minutes my eyes begin to close and I realize that rest is not only needed but necessary. Even now the effects of too much Benadryl cloud my thoughts and leave me squinting through my distractions to focus on the sun that is struggling to be seen.
Moral of the story: Don’t take too much medication and then write a blog. You try and make something out of nothing. Only God can do that.
