As October 1st draws closer and I continue to check my account and see no new donations, I’ve started to worry again about whether God will get me enough to stay out here or if he’ll send me home before we hit Colombia. Which is stupid; remember when he gave me $5000 in 2 weeks? $1900 in 6 weeks is nothing compared to that.
Yet still I lie in bed at night and wonder.
Plus Satan is just loving how homesick I am and using it against me as much as he can; as I was lying awake one night listening to the cats fighting in the street below our window and thinking about home and fundraising, he whispered “You could be home so soon if God doesn’t come through for you. No more fundraising, no more life in a sleeping bag, no more eating like a bird, no more slow internet…think how easy it would be to give up.”
That almost got me. I thought, “I won’t even stress about getting the money. I’ll just wait it out, and if I don’t make my deadline, I’ll take that as God telling me I was only meant to do 3 months instead of the whole 11.”
And God replied, “I’m not letting you out that easy.”
So I daydreamed for the next few days about a backup plan, what I’d do if I did have to go home in six weeks, to the point where I was almost excited about it.
Then God gave me the most unexpected gift to turn my thinking around.
I was in Starbucks with two of my teammates, and I’d just gotten off of Facebook so of course I was missing home. I was sad that I couldn’t buy a drink, and then as we were waiting for Ash and Rachel to get theirs, the barista called a name and set two fruit smoothies on the counter. The guy came up and took one of them and walked off. We looked back and forth a minute, checked that they both had the same name, and he never came for it.
So as I walked out with my free smoothie(which turned out to be mango, my absolute favorite), I laughed and thanked God for cheering me up. And he whispered, “And just think, if I can give you Starbucks just because you want it, how much more can I give you $11,000 when you need it?”
So as I walked out with my free smoothie(which turned out to be mango, my absolute favorite), I laughed and thanked God for cheering me up. And he whispered, “And just think, if I can give you Starbucks just because you want it, how much more can I give you $11,000 when you need it?”
Of course.
God knows what I need and he knows when I need it. He’ll get it to me in time, even if it’s at midnight on September 30th.
I love him so much.
God knows what I need and he knows when I need it. He’ll get it to me in time, even if it’s at midnight on September 30th.
I love him so much.
I believe God will provide every penny I need, but I also believe he plans on doing that through people like you! Please help me out by doing one or all of the following:
1)Pray for God to lead people to give, and for him to keep giving me faith to trust that he’ll take care of me.
2)Share this post on your Facebook wall and ask your friends to check out my journey. You never know who might see it and give; last time most of my donations came from friends of my friends(including my teammate’s sister’s best friend’s mother-in-law. God does crazy things) all because they simply took 30 seconds of their time to click a few buttons and write a setence or two about me.
3)Click the “Support Me” link at the top of this page and give any amount that you can. If 36 people donate $50 I’ll be at my deadline, but no matter what you’re able to give, every single dollar adds up. If you have $5, give that. If you can give $50, do it. It all helps and I can’t stay out here without it!
