Some of the questions people ask me when they hear about the World Race make me laugh. Some frustrate me.
“How will you raise that much money?”
“What if you get some terrible disease?”
“What if you get out there your first month and realize you hate it?”
“What if you starve to death because you hate rice and that’s all they give you to eat?”(that one’s my little brother)
My answer to all of the above? I don’t know.
But I’m going anyway.
One infuriating person even said, “Why do you have to go? God can use someone else just as easily.”
After literally counting to ten in my head because I wasn’t sure whether I wanted to scream at them or just burst into tears and leave the room, I said, “Because God didn’t ask someone else. He asked me.”
Sure, that calling comes with a lot of unknowns. There are plenty more that no one thinks to ask me, but I’ve asked God hundreds of times myself.
-What if I don’t get along with my teammates? I’m such an extrovert that the people around me have a huge make-or-break effect on whatever I’m doing. No matter how much I love a particular ministry, it’s going to be a major challenge if I have to do it alongside seven people who are constantly arguing.
-What about money? I’m having to use most of my paycheck to go to my main support account because so few people are donating, so I’ll be bringing next to nothing with me as far as personal funds. While all of my base needs will be covered(food, shelter, transportation, etc), emergencies can still come up, like having something stolen and needing to replace it, or getting sick and needing to pay for a doctor. I have no idea how any of that will work.
But I’m going anyway.
Yes, it’s terrifying. That’s why I’m trusting God, because only he can make sense of something this huge.
I don’t know a lot of things, but the few things I do know are enough.
I know that God wants me to do this.
I KNOW he wants me to go in July. He WILL bring the money in time, I am NOT switching to a later route just because I’m scared of fundraising(please, dear friends, I know you mean well but you have to stop suggesting this, because it really is tempting at times and I need you to help me not do it).
I know that even if I can’t stand a single person on my team or even on my whole squad(neither of which is likely though because I always like everybody wherever I go), I’ll still have God, so I’ll never be lonely.
I know that somehow, God will provide for every single need I have, big or small.
I know that I can’t do this, but God can, and so I’m going to let him take me in his hands and do all the work through me.
It’s going to be scary. It’s going to be hard. But as long as God is going with me, I’m going anyway.
