I have been focusing so hard for the last 5 months on the idea of graduating and the world race that I have failed to realize and do anything outside of that. I can sadly admit that I have wasted a lot of precious time that I could have been givng to many others by serving them. It is one thing to ask people to give but I myself have not been giving as I should. I have not stopped to really consider the ministry and needs of the community where I live. I have forgotten that there are people who are cold, going hungry at night, and aren’t aware of their worth in God’s eyes right here in atlanta and I have ignored the fact that they need to see the love of Christ just as much. It is too easy to get caught up in our lives and tell God, hold on, I’m busy right now, Ill talk to you after I finish this, I’ll try to squeeze you into my day at some point, I just want to sit and relax and do my own thing, I don’t feel like it right now, etc… that list goes on. I can’t remember the last time i said to myself, sorry Liliana your schedule is going to have to wait, right now it is God’s time, I am still waiting for the day that I am not trying to squeeze Him into my agenda but I all my planning goes around Him.
The funny part is that I have tried to consiously make Him the center of my day for the last six months, I don’t know if He has truly received that day yet, so my prayer now is that He doesn’t just get that day but every day that follows. I pray that I can truly learn what it means to forget about myself, my worries, my stress, my hunger, my sadness, my discomfort and start thinking about others, not how I can be used, forget me in this, but just simply about them and their needs.
“Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourself. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also the interests of others.” (Phil 2:3-4)
