So it is almost three weeks post training camp and I am finally getting around to Writing something. I like writing, but have always had the fear of what I said just wasn’t significant enough. That explains where I was wasn’t trying to find my signifance. The last few months have been unexplainable and unimaginable. My world has completely been rocked and my perspective on so many things are slowly changing. I was trying to find this balance for so long with trying to display a seriousness in my faith yet at the same time figure out how the fun fit in there as well. It has been a struggle to say the least to intermingle these two concepts. When I lived a slave to sin I lived with the idea that being a Christ follower is no fun and there are so many rules but now being free from that, I know there is so much life and joy that is surrounding us as we walk out our faith.
Training camp blew me away. I mean it was an exhausting week but in that one week God managed to stretch me further than I have ever been since coming to Christ. I saw how He worked in people to free them from the things that we hold onto, the bitterness, the unforgiveness, the shame, the regrets, the lies. Oh my goodness, he completely knocked those things out of the park, when I closed my eyes at one point I remember seeing a hazy image of a person walking toward a cliff and all these past memories and hurts just fall off like melting snow from behind them. I saw people take a dip in God’s redeeming love, I felt the thickness of the holy spirit in the air, and after the first night, I even had the opportunity to sleep at night! How amazing it was, it was freezing! I woke up early in the morning and fought my tiredness and all of it was worth it! I saw everyones layers just peel off as the holy spirit penetrated deeper. I met my brothers and sisters in Christ that I will be so fortunate to spend the next year with. I mean how does it get any better, I have amazing people that all hunger for God, the way I have come to hunger for Him.
I loved dancing and shouting at the top of my lungs without worrying what anyone around me thought. I loved letting God out of the box and stomping on it! I loved being fed with Gods truth, I pretty much felt like it was a thanksgiving meal, where you are so full that you can’t eat another bite, I was so full with the presence of the holy spirit and his love that I couldn’t even take another bite until i processed the huge meal before hand.
I wish the stirring inside of me, the excitement that I feel just talking about my Father could jump out onto this page, i pray that as you read this you just feel a deeper hunger for more and a rousing inside. You will know he is trying to say something when you feel it. So press into what the holy spirit wants to say, press into God’s amazing nature, press into the unequivocal love of Christ.
The most amazing breakfast of the week!
Team Grace Under Fire! Nancy, Clara, Carrie, Will, Me, and Chris! God has put together a great team and I am excited to see how He is going to work in all of us for his greater good!
The entire V squad! I am about to live life with you guys for the next 11 months, I can’t wait to have some great poop stories with all of you! V squad is a tight community!I also want to take a second to express my gratitude for all the awesome people has placed in my life that I will be leaving back at home. God has blessed me with friendships that are raw and real, people that I will get to come back to and people that have been so supportive every step of the way!
Thank you ladies for being great women of God, women that encourage, inspire, love unconditionally. You guys are stinking awesome!
Thank you Matt, for having patience with me and for pushing me when I really hated to be pushed, I know you are going to be used for great things and I pray blessings over you as you are called to exactly where he leads you to.
Thank you mommy (yes i still say mommy) for pulling out those bracelets at the restaurant and asking the server if he wanted to buy one to help me raise my support. Your heart has been through its share of pain but you have perservered and loved without conditions the entire time. Please continue to find your strength in Christ. I love you. Thank you Nathan for opening up to us and loving us as your own. Thank you to all who have joined in this ministry with me, thank you for your prayers and I hope that God keeps blessing you through this next year as you share this journey with me. I love you all.
