Dear Readers:
I have edited my support letter so that you may have the ability to read it online. It’s nothing fancy just my opening my heart to.
I understand that this is a weird way for me to express my desire and
passion for God. This is supposed to be a support letter for the mission trip I
am planning on taking in June 2010. But while sitting in this café pondering
what I should say so that you will donate money for my endeavor I feel the Lord
telling me to just explain to you what this is all about.
It really all began when I was a child I had this desire to travel and
most of all I wanted to help people. I have always wanted to support, encourage
and inspire other to push the limits to be all they can be. I started imaging
myself traveling to China
and Africa. At the tender age of ten or eleven
I had already mapped my route from LA to China
to Africa. Sadly years passed and it was left
as a dream. Like the ones of children wanting to be fire fighters and nurses. I
remember once telling my grandmother I would strap myself with bibles and cross
into China
and tell everyone about Jesus. I was passionate and I truly believed nothing
could stop me. I now understand why Jesus said to let the little children come
to him for there’s is the Kingdom
of Heaven.
Fast forward a few years and I’m in high school. Procrastination and
advanced classes were the game all while trying to juggle a multitude of family
issues. But through the darkest parts of my life I held onto God. I had a revival
in me. You know that glow in your face because you know with every fiber of
your being that you scratched the surface to something! I wanted to help
everyone I encountered (while silently wanting someone to help me) But I found
joy and love in Christ. I saw things in a new light. Everything was a blessing
from the flowers on the curb to the newly fallen snow. But through a series of events I had given up
all that had “defined” me. I didn’t realize at the time that God was molding
me. I was letting go of how I and the world defined me and what I needed to do
was define myself as a child of God.
Living in Houston
for a year I finally thought I had figured everything out. I had a great job
that paid well and a fiancé that was perfect. I was looking for God and even
though I didn’t hear him well I thought things were on the right track. But
they weren’t. In the midst of preparing for a wedding and dealing with
un-acceptance I stopped hearing God all together. Just silence. It scared me.
Where was my God? Where was his love? Where was the security I had in him? I
walked away from it all in several choices where I simply did not obey him. It
is an awful thing to not hear him, it’s the worst thing. And now I had this
itch inside of me for him and my soul would cry out to him in need. I found myself
in my car one night crying to God, desperate for him to hear me and guide me.
Nothing, not even a whisper in the wind. Until I stumbled across a website for
mission trips. All I read was “11 months, 11 countries” “Mission Trip” “Apply
Here” and I heard God clear as day “This
is what you need to do”. It was time to start obeying.
I am giving everything up for him. Not so that people think I’m great
and amazing for “sacrificing.” The truth is I’m unworthy. I am wretched and I
desperately need God. My life is meaningless without him. It’s time for me to
walk what I preach and to fully give back my life to the one who gave me life.
Simply said it all about what He wants. I still don’t have that
happiness and joy that I once had, or even that uncontrollable desire to help
others but I know the Lord will give that with time. I just know that I am
obeying.
If you would like to support me in the World Race, please do. I will
need a prayer team and if you would like to support me financially you can
here: lilimejia.theworldrace.org.
Thanks
Lili
