Since I’ve arrived in Ukraine its been a battle to be in communication with God. I wont go in all the details as to why (if you want to know just email me) but its been mostly a mix of personal issues God is working through with me and the spiritual strongholds in this country. Its been interesting. Anyway God knows all things and before I left Houston a couple of friends of mine (Fernanda and Heber) gave me a going away present “Too Busy Not to Pray.” I started reading it at the airport in Paris and just felt God leading me to marinate in the words.
God is teaching me to pray. He is starting at the basics and its been hard. A bit humbling, but I know God wants complete surrender from me and I am both anxious and excited to see where this goes. Below is what I wrote this morning in my journal.
Today I learned/read about how to pray. The basics ACTS: Adoration, Confession, Thanksgiving and Supplication. The book has encouraged me to try out prayer journaling and today I will try to only have in my prayers Adoration and Confession. To start I read Psalm 8 out loud to God (I needed a baby step)
My song/adoration to God:
Lord Almighty, you are might to save. Creator of the heavens and the earth. You are worthy of praise. My God, my King, you deserve a sincere praise from the bottom of my heart. You deserve my life because Ii am unworthy of your grace and mercy. You are the creator of the heavens, of peace and light. Why do you love me? Why do you pursue me?
My God, my King I should worship you all of my days and teach my children to worship you all of their days. You are worthy to be praised. For everything I see you have created, for everything I feel you have allowed.
You created me in your image and you have honored and blessed me with your presence and attention. Honestly there are no words to describe you. There is nothing that compares to your Awesomeness. A God with a servant heart/spirit, by all things worldly you shouldn’t exist. Complete unselfishness and love goes against everything this flesh believes.
God you are Holy and nothing compares to you. Nothing should even be allowed to be near you. But you are a God of Mercy and Forgiveness, of Love and Grace. You allow me to come near your throne even in my wretchedness. You alone are God. You alone are worthy to be praised. You are my God, my King. My heart and soul.
