I love my team. I mean that too. We’ve been in Bucharest for check-in the past few days with the other teams, exchanging stories and such and it just really made me appreciate my team. (Check-in is a time we take to meet with our squad leaders and come together as a whole to worship and hangout with one another.) Not that the other teams are bad, I just realized how right our team is. We have our issues and we challenge each other but at the end of the day, we look out for one another and we love each other. We want the best for each other, we want to edify one of another. Community!
Romania is gorgeous and the malls in Bucharest are ridiculous. It was great when almost half of our 52 decided to go to the city, at the same time. Most of us didn’t have bus tickets either! It was a blast 🙂
But more than that, God has been rocking my world. We had this amazing worship night. To be completely honest it looked like nothing special. One guy on his guitar singing his heart to God with about 52 people in the same accord. The lights were off and it nothing else mattered. Just you and God.
God is redefining himself to me. You see I still have expectations of God, preconceived notions that I have borrowed from other people. I know that he is a merciful God, full of grace, but for the longest time I have subconsciously made him into a God that is waiting to punish me for my sins. That’s all tied into how I have high expectations for myself and I’m hard on myself when I mess up. He spoke to me at check-in, that I don’t know him, not the way he wants me too, it was humbling and all I could do was spend some time on my face and bask in his love. I can’t go home the same, I can’t keep my walls up. It’s all in or nothing now.
