Over the past week and a half, I have had multiple ideas for what I would write my next blog on. Every morning after spending time with Jesus, I would decide that whatever I had received or discovered that morning would be the thing to tell people about, but several days, a lot of homework and multiple unfinished blogging attempts later, I am scrapping it all and just telling you about the right now:)
I have slept less, showered less and cried more than usual in the past few weeks. It isn’t that awful things are happening. It is simply that the Lord is filling my life with so many wonderful things and is allowing me to grow and be shaped by challenge after challenge in the best of ways! I am preparing to leave, but not wanting to shut my self off from what is going on right now here in College Station, Texas. I am watching the Lord move in people’s lives through prayer, discipleship, community and I want to be all in for how revival is happening here in this nation at this time. This verse probably sums up best how I feel about finishing off my last semester as a student here at Texas A&M, “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.” (1 Corinthians 9:24-27)
So, in the midst of the tears and breakthrough, I am realizing that I can be fully invested right here, right now, because I can trust that the Lord is walking me through the “strict training” that is going to be preparing me for the World Race. I don’t have to know exactly what is going to happen and try to cover all my bases. I can trust that each day God will lead me exactly where I need to go and that when he digs up the things in my heart that I hadn’t wanted to think about or look at, that His purposes are always good and that He is doing it with the utmost tenderness and affection. There is so much freedom in this because I can be fully invested in the future, in the next step that the Lord has for me by being fully invested right now.
