welcome back!
my first blog post was written on my 18th birthday. this blog post is being written in real time on my 19th birthday. it seems kind of special to me; like an anniversary of sorts.
last year i wrote about gap year and how excited i was to have an opportunity like it. i wrote about feeling “overwhelming peace and grace and love and gratitude”.
this year i am not i’m swaziland like i thought i’d be. in fact i’m on my way back to texas from ohio- sitting on the floor of a train i’ve been on for 12 hours and will be on for a long while still- but i’m still filled with overwhelming peace and grace and love and gratitude.
it’s funny how much can change in a year and how much can stay the same. i’ve officially gotten my drivers license. i did all the #seniorszn things. i’ve graduated high school. i worked at the same summer job i’ve been working at since i was 15. i’ve managed to keep my best friends through this transition and make more. i managed to somehow score an amazing boyfriend. i moved across the country for a month without a whole lot of planning. i went to the gym more times this month than i have in my entire life. i’ve cried. i’ve broken down. i’ve laughed. i’ve loved wholeheartedly and not at all. i’ve been kind. i’ve been tired. and i’ve been mean and moody. i’ve walked hand in hand with the Father and i’ve fallen out of step with Him. and i’ve learned a lot but somehow not enough to keep me from learning still.
this year has been a year of growth and i am filled to the brink with overwhelming peace and grace and love and gratitude for all of the good and all of the bad. and i can’t wait for what is to come. and no, i don’t know what will happen this year- i know i’m going to india and nepal and i’m stoked for that, but as to what will happen while i’m there- i’m going to bring back another snippet from my first blog and say “if any of you are like me and you can’t help but wonder “what happens next?” to you- and to myself- i say- well, i have absolutely no idea but i also have absolutely no doubt in my mind that it is going to be amazing.”
thanks for all the support this past year y’all really are some loving folks. until next time-
many blessings and much love,
lexi <3
