i serve a miraculous God.
i serve a true God.
i serve a faithful and fulfilling God.
i serve a God of dreams. of hopes. of plans.
and tonight i was reminded of that.
as i was praying, i started to thank my Father, for the people He’s put in my life, for the family He’s blessed me with even though we don’t always get along, for my teachers and mentors and every person i don’t want to leave in about a month. i thanked Him for using them to help me to grow. and to learn. and to love in a way i didn’t know i could. and then i started to thank Him for the ways He will use me to teach others these things while i’m away.
i am so blessed to be called to this trip, but it has been in no way easy to fundraise for it. as a matter of fact, i have a deadline of $5,000 due in just a little over a month and i have no idea how i’m going to manage to get it.
but that’s the thing: i am not.
i serve a miraculous God.
i serve a true God.
i serve a faithful and fulfilling God.
i serve a God of dreams. of hopes. of plans.
there is no way in heck (pardon my language) that i can raise this money. only God can. God my provider. God my deliverer. God my Father.
anytime i talk to someone about how fundraising is going and they find out how far behind i am, they get nervous and start doubting whether i will even make it on the trip, and who can blame them- i can’t. i even doubt it sometimes- i’m not going to lie. but when i see that look on their face or i hear the words “you might want to start looking at other options” or “are you sure you’re gonna go?” all i respond with is “yes i’m going.” and the faces of these people change. and they start to look at me like i’m crazy. and maybe i am. $5,000 is a lot to raise in a month,
but i serve a crazy God.
this is a God who turned water to wine, who raised the dead to life, who heals the sick and wounded in an instant. news flash: that isn’t normal- that is freaking crazy. and who am i to doubt whether or not He can provide for me? like He hasn’t been doing it my entire life???
i thank God for the plan He has for my life. i thank God that He has called me to this trip. i thank God for giving me a dream. gap year is my dream, and my God makes dreams come true. and when it’s all said and done, and i move on, and He gives me another dream, He will fulfill that dream as well. because:
i serve a miraculous God.
i serve a true God.
i serve a faithful and fulfilling God.
i serve a God of dreams. of hopes. of plans.
so yes, my fundraising in some people’s eyes, and sometimes in my own, is “lacking”, but in God’s eyes it’s right on time. He works in his timing not my own, and i think i’m finally learning to trust that.
however all of that being said, i do still need $5,000 by june so if you feel it on your heart to give, all you have to do is press the little “donate”
button to help make this little girl’s dream come true 🙂
as always,
many blessing and much love,
lexi <3
p.s i guess this is kind of my “update” of good news from my last blog? idk i didn’t really say anything about anything i said in the last post but i did say that hopefully there was some good news and i think realizing how crazy wonderful God really is is pretty good news idk about you but anyway, yeah, goodnight.
p.p.s also i’m seeing endgame tomorrow so i guess that’s good news :p also why do i always write these while i’m trying to go to sleep i need to get out of this habit, okay now goodnight
