I’m leaving sooner?!?!?!
Hey everyone, I haven’t written in a while, and I decided to write about how my life is going pre race! This past week I was offered a job to be a resident counselor at a christian summer camp called Lakeshore. Since I’m leaving for the world race in September, I had no plans of going back to camp this summer, I thought it would be a better idea to work at home, and spend quality times with my friends and family before we go off in different directions.
However, once again the thought of be comfortable frightened me, and the Lord called me to serve Him this summer. I was hesitant, worried, and anxious, the thought of being away from my family for another three months, and then immediately packing up to live in different countries totally frightened me. Thankfully I’m comforted by a God who calls us to His plan, which is best for us.
WOAH MOM N DAD I’M NOT GONE YET!!
The day I got the job was the same day I came home from a nice, relaxing beach. When I turned the corner into my drive way, there stood a white for sale sign in the middle of my childhood homes front yard. After years of talk, my parents dream to move out of Germantown (literally the definition of suburbia) seemed to becoming true. I just didn’t realize it would all come so quickly.
Everyday I’m greeted by realtors, painters, and guest touring our home. I quickly ramble through boxes to find the items, I need for the day and the run off to school and work.
I’m excited for my parents, but also I’m selfishly sad to be moving. With graduation coming up, me leaving in may, and all of my friends getting ready for college, I realized this was this last few weeks is all I have left as life as I have ever known it. and then I remember I’m living to travel the world and serve our awesome God yeah yeah hard life. cry me a river!!!!!!!
FRUSTRATIONS WITH FUNDRAISING
So as I have said 5 million two times I’m leaving in about 5 weeks. THAT MEANS I HAVE TO RAISE 13,000 DOLLARS IN FIVE WEEKS. I hate to sound discouraged, but I have not been doin so hot with fundraising. WHY DID I NOT THINK IT WOULD BE THIS HARD???/ WHY WAS I THINKING $15,000 COULD BE FOUND ON THE GROUND OR SOMETHING. IM SO SORRY MOM AND DAD FOR NOT REALIZING THE VALUE OF MONEY!!! If I could give you every movie ticket you ever bought for me I would.
I guess this process has been so difficult for me because I have had to teach myself to be completely selfless with my income. Every dollar I make must go directly towards my trip. I have also had to become aware of my time and planning. Every second of the day I have to waste MUST go into fundraising: making art, planning events, etc. The frustrating part is, every ounce of my energy goes into raising this money, and I feel like I haven’t made a budge in my goal.
I try so hard to do it by myself. TRUST ME I get WAY more annoyed with my fundraising post than you do. I hate nagging and asking for help, but I realized I can not do this by myself. I have to trust God and press in to Him in these dry seasons. He gave me the uncomfortable nudge to to serve, and if He gives you that same uncomfortable nudge to donate I challenge you to do so!!! I know He is faithful, and trusting him in this loco, confusing, and life changing time is all part of His plan.
Im scared of being away from home, but I’m WAY more scared to live an average life. The thought of not satisfiying my adventurous spirit the Lord gave me is what makes me push on during these struggles
HOW YOU CAN HELP!!!!!!! plz I’m just a girl broke as a joke
Pray for me!
Pray for me, my anxiety, my frustration, and my heart. I need prayers to have strength, and press on to prepare for the race. I need to constantly be reminded all this work is for HIM and not for not. I also need prayers for fundraising.
Donate!!:)
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