Anxiety sucks. It really, truly does. I’ve had it all my life, and it’s only started disappearing here on the Race. The reason is because I’m trusting in Abba in a way I have never done so or knew I needed to before. It’s like the old children’s song: “He’s got the whole world, in His hands!”
My main form of anxiety, when I first came on the Race, was in the day to day things or situations that would pop up. I need to do my laundry TODAY, so I rush around trying to find someone to do it with! But after each instance of anxious despair, Abba provided me with people to help me out of my rut.
Now the second form has come along; talking with locals. This part of my anxiety is rooted in fear of “What if I mess up? What if I say something that offends the other person? What if…” It controls my mind and mouth every time I step out of the building where we live, in every country we’ve gone to so far.
At feedback a couple of days ago, my teammates encouraged me to talk to the locals and to push past the fear. Okay. Okay. The day before feedback, we and team Ahava had gone to ministry at a rehabilitation center.
I talked with one of the men there. He told me his testimony, and of how happy our teams made the men. We did a devotional, then sang a song, and then played volleyball or /harem/, which is a finger version of pool. Some of the girls were taught how to play the guitar, or just engage in conversation with the men. It was really cool hearing and being able to see how much joy were we’re able to spread with them.
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Today, we’re doing flea market ministry. And TODAY, I’m going to talk to the locals!!
Which I did! At the flea market, we were able to sit with the owners and help sell clothes! I was in the direct sunlight for quite a bit of time however, and acquired a sunburned nose and lips 🙁
And as an aside, I’ve been committed to reading the entire Bible this year. I started in January, and reached Numbers. I stopped, and picked up from Numbers again after training camp in August. I’ve been steadily making my way through, and yesterday, I finished Revelations!! Now I’ve read the entire Bible once!
Please pray for me, as I am getting sick :/ and for the rest of my team to not get sick. Pray for my squad, that whatever they’re going through right now may be seen as part of their journey with Abba. Please pray for my family in the States, that they may be growing in their faith as I am away.
The peace of Abba and Jesus Christ be with you, Cheyenne
