I have been struggling with things for a few weeks. Most of it has come from lack of sleep and lack of time. I have been so overwhelmed that I haven’t had much time to do anything but continue to add on to my list of things to do. Earlier this week I was sitting in class when it hit me all at once that I was so overwhelmed I had forgotten about how big of a responsibitliy this trip is. I hit my braking point when I just had to give it to the Lord. I was then reminded that the Lord Chose me out of all people he chose me to be apart of this adventure.
It just so happened that later in the day, I had received the package that would start another one of my fundraisers. I was skeptical about it because I didn’t know how well it do. It just so happened that it really took off. Another thing from the Lord, right exactly when I needed it. In just 2 days I have made 500 dollars in bracelets that is. I know the lord has had his hands upon this whole trip. He has made things that are crazy work out. As of Thursday I’m 50% of the way there on my fundraising goal.
Another big thing is that after waiting so long, I finally found out exactly where I will be spending my 9 months. GUATEMALA, BOTSWANA, MALAYSIA!!! I was a bit discouraged that we weren’t going to Thailand a selfish expectation. I then realized that how cool it will be that I get to return to Guatemala. I know in this the Lord has big plans. We found out that if you feel led to a different route you can choose a different one. We have had to say bye to some of our teammates due to this. I was saddened, but over joyed that I get to return to Guatemala.
I was just sharing with a friend the other night the opportunity I got in Guatemala this past summer. A mission trip buddie and I got the chance to lead a 70 year old man to the Lord. We totally saw God move through the whole situation. I don’t think I have ever experienced something so humbling. I know that if the Lord reunited me with that old man again that I would be able to check in on him and he would be in awe of the Lord we serve.
I can say for the other countries that I don’t know much about them, but I can’t wait to start getting to know more. This trip has been difficult, but at the same time so rewarding. I don’t think the Lord has ever left me to do it alone. He has guided me and been with me every step of the way. He has given me so much confirmation that I know it wouldn’t even be possible to back out.
“I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord” -Proverbs 27:13
If you could please say a prayer for my team, a lot of important decisions are being made. Thank you so much for the continuous support, I wouldn’t make it without you.
-With much Love Lexi.
