During training camp there were some things that I had thought I surrendered to the Lord, but not completely. It’s like I wanted shared custody with the Lord.” I want to give it up to Lord, but I still want to hang on to part of it.” Little did I know that’s not how it works, you have to give it all to him.
This past Sunday at church the sermon was over surrendering. I had thought “well good thing I did that at training camp.” I didn’t think much of it. The Lord thought otherwise. I was reading “Kingdom journey’s” last night (Seth Barnes book a book we were assigned to read before the race) the part I was reading was titled “Not Surrendering.”
I was like “Lord what do you mean by this I surrendered it all to you, what more do you want?” I didn’t though, I was still holding on to just a little bit, I was holding on to the part that I just didn’t want to give up.
I read “There is a cost to not surrendering. What if you’re fighting for the wrong thing? What if you insist on calling the shots instead of submitting? What if you’re clinging to something you’d better off without?”
“when we don’t surrender, we’re faced with an unpleasant reality: that we may be hypocrites. We proclaim that Jesus is Lord and that he gets to call the shots in our life; however, we stubbornly still cling to our own rights and expectations.”
” The cost of not surrendering is that you’ll settle for a cheap substitute, never embracing God’s best.” “The cost of not surrendering is that you’ll continue on in bondage while claiming to be free. Persist in it and eventually you will begin to define yourself in terms of what you can’t do.”
It hit me hard right in the pit of my stomach. I needed to give it up. I read where it said “when we don’t surrender, we are faced with an unpleasant reality: that we may be HYPOCRITES. I hate that word, I hate the meaning people have given to it. I do not want to be defined as a one. But to know that by not surrendering fully I was acting as one.
After completely processing what I read, I knew the Lord was speaking straight to me. It was so clear, I did exactly what I needed to fully surrender to the Lord. I will no longer “Settle for a cheap substitute” I want to “Embrace God’s best.” I will no longer be in bondage to the thing that keeps me from growing closer to the Lord. I am Free. I will live like I am free.
