Faithfulness!!!
It’s liked its being screamed at my by the Lord in every way possible. Not the faithfulness of me but the faithfulness of the Lord. He is showing me this week that he will come through for me. It has been so hard to understand that he is faithful and that he will come through when you want things fixed on your own time. This has been a very tough week and I have wanted to throw in the towel a few times and say I’m done, but that would mean my faith would be little.
My Dad has struggled with eating without choking, because something is going on with his throat. He hasn’t been able to eat regular food without it hurting so bad. My biggest fear has always been that it would happen when I was alone and that I wouldn’t be able to help, because I freak out every time. He went to see a specialist Tuesday, and they told him that they would do a scope today to check out the problem. I don’t think I have ever been more worried about something, I didn’t want something to happen to my Daddy before he was able to get help. But the Lord kept saying “I have it all under control, my faithfulness will prevail.”
That same night after we got back from Amarillo, I sat down to do my quiet time I opened the Ruth study I had been doing. This day in particular was titled “Faithfulness.” If any of y’all know the story of Ruth it is about a women who was left widowed at a young age, she was very close with her mother-in-law Naomi. Naomi’s was widowed also, she was had nothing either, so she decided to move back to her homeland, where Ruth willingly followed her. Naomi was to old to remarry, and in the bible times without a husband and a provider you had nothing. When the Ruth and Naomi went back to her homeland, Ruth went to work all day basically picking up left overs after harvest. This job that Ruth was doing was very dangerous, and was hard work. She did it because she knew it was her job to take care of her mother-in-law. While doing this the man who owned the land, told her that she could harvest the good stuff, and that she could eat his helps food. Ruth thanked him and told Naomi of what had happened, Naomi told her to marry this man. Ruth ended up Marrying this Man named Boaz and had a kid and took care of her. Naomi was left empty handed, when the Lord blessed her again with another family. Often times when we are left empty handed we become broken, like Naomi was. The Lord spoke faithfulness to Naomi as he blessed her with a family. Later down the line of geneology King David was born from this. How cool?
After reading that and going over that, I knew that God was showing me that he is faithful that he will come through for me. The week only worsened as Max (my dog) ran out in front of a car chasing after a cat, and got ran over. He was shaking and sad a startled. I was so scared that I would lose him that they would take him to the vet and he had like internal bleeding or something crazy. I prayed and yet again I felt a sense of peace, and God saying again. “Faithfulness Lexi, Faithfulness.”
Everything played out and God came through. My Dads small procedure ended up being something fixable, the dog’s accident was also fixable. I was worried and thought worst when God was laughing and saying “Child I got this!”
Through this whole journey I feel like God is using different things to prepare me. I know that if I learn now how to rely on him, that when I get on the field and I’m over seas that it will be easier to do it. I’m so thankful for how far I have come since agreeing to go. I worry a lot, and when I say that I mean A LOT!!! I know that all I have to do is put it the Lords hands, because his FAITHFULNESS will come through.
Understand, therefore, that the LORD your for is indeed God. He is the faithful For who keeps his covenant for a thousand generations and lavishes his unfailing love on this who love him and obey his commands. – Deuteronomy 7:9
