Act like it depends on me,
trust like it depends on God.
It seems simple enough, but fundraising like it depends on God is such a challenge for me. I really like to be in control. I find that often times, I approach fundraising acting and trusting like it all depends on me. God gave me such a lesson in humility.
This past weekend God took the power out of my hands. I had had a sense of foreboding leading up to my car wash. I was feeling overwhelmed and like things just weren’t coming together. But I had done everything “correctly”, talked to the right people and done the “right“ things, heck I even covered my car wash with prayer… repeatedly. I had done it all. So when Saturday came around, I was mildly confident, but mostly really nervous. As Gandalf would say
“ There never was much hope, just a fool’s hope.”
By worldly standards, my car wash was an utter failure. We washed 6 cars, for $75 total (mostly pity money). By kingdom standards, I had a really awesome hang out session with God. I spent most of Saturday morning praying and worshipping God. During this time God showed me how reluctant I am to abandon my control. When God allowed for a somewhat flopped fundraiser, He broke down my pride and told me to trust in His plans for me. God flooded me with a complete peace and a joy. He is in charge of my support for World Race, and I think God is pretty passionate about it (especially considering He called me to go).
It is frustrating to have a fundraiser fail to raise funds, and it is annoying to know that I have time I could have spent otherwise (like spending precious time with my family). However, it is empowering to spend a morning with God. Sadly, it took my flopped fundraiser for God to get my attention. Everyone reading this post, God wants our attention, if you give it to Him your life will be full, regardless of the world’s standards.
I ask for your continued support and prayer. I still need to raise $6,500 plus additional funds to cover medications (side note: I bought 4 months worth of insulin last week for $794! I need to trust God with my diabetes). Please click on the support me and help me help others.
Thank you!
