being on the race has made me realize how small my perspective of love was. i had no idea what it really meant to love. i didn’t know what loving the lord meant. i had no clue how to love myself and i was exceptionally clueless on how to really love others. i loved to the best of my abilities but as i’ve been on the mission field i’ve realized something. the closer i get to god, the more my heart breaks. because the deeper i grow with the lord, the better understanding i have of his love for his creation. the taste i’ve gotten is almost too much to handle. i have no other way to describe it other than to say love is powerful. love holds SO much power. the love we show each other has the ability to change lives and the love we receive from god has the ability to make us completely whole.
god has been working on my heart these last 8 months showing me how to really give and receive love. there’s one particular way god has really spoken to me and it’s through a little girl named espy. it’s been four months since i’ve been with her in honduras and i can’t even tell you how often i think of and miss her. for whatever reason she has forever been stamped on my heart and this month especially i can’t get her out of my head.
isn’t it weird how god places people in your life, for even just a season, and from that moment on you’re just never the same? espy will probably never remember me in this life but i will never be able to forget her. i was with her for only a month but the amount of love i have for that child is unreal. it makes me realize that my love for her is just the TIP of the iceberg of the amount of love that god has for her. or any of his children, for that matter.
after coming on the world race i will never be able to love the same as before. my love has gone so much wider and deeper than i ever thought imaginable. i’ve had a glimpse of god’s love for me and the rest of his children and i vow to forever show that same love to everyone i meet. even when i don’t understand how or why i’m suppose to show them love and grace, i’m going to look back at my time on the world race and remember the power of god’s love and how EVERYONE deserves that understanding.
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btw- here are some pictures of me and sweet little espy that i mentioned earlier 🙂
