Expectations…
I am…well I was…well and still kind of am the queen of expectations, but I’m working on it and I think I am making progress. Really.
When I moved to OKlahoma I had set some very high expectations resulting in everything not being OK! The expectations I created in my mind were so fair out and wild that when i revisit that time all I can do is laugh about it all. Every single expectation that I can remember both for my move to Oklahoma and just in my life in general has been and honestly sometimes still is based of a person, an event or thing.
My first encounter of being disappointed from a failed expectation I was about 8.
My last encounter of being disappointed from a failed expectations was yesterday.
See, in both situations I placed very unrealistic expectations on a person, place, or thing; but like I said, I am making progress.
I was told by my college mentor to NEVER put my expectation in a person or an event, she had a lot of reasons to go along with this BIG statement, but one has stuck with me for years; “Most of the time people are unaware of the expectations that are being placed in them.”
So…
When I am asked what my expectations are for this mission trip, I don’t allow myself to expect things from my teammates, or even from the trip itself; my desire for this trip to be one of little disappointment and a lot of excitement. I have only one expectation now and throughout this journey; I expect for the Lord to show up, and for His mighty breath to cover us throughout the entire trip. He loves to give and loves to bless his children so I am expecting for Him to just do that.
By placing all of my expectation in Him, there is no fear of disappointment. There is only the peace of understanding that He will be with me and my team; and His blessing will be bigger and greater than any expectation we could ever have.
Wishlist…not expectation–>I would really like to ride an Elephant!!
