So I
wanted to share …at least on some level what has been going on inside of me the
last week or so. So you can pray for me.
Psalm 13 has been such a comfort and
encouragement to me in the last few days.
Psalm 13
How long, O LORD? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How
long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in
death;
My enemy will say, “I have overcome him”
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
But I trust in your unfailing love; my
heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the LORD, for he has been
good to me.
About a week ago, I shared one of my deepest
hurts with my team. And it’s an issue
that has been buried for so so long.
I’m just now beginning to feel it. And it hurts so so much. I have
so much to process…so many emotions I don’t understand or know how to deal
with. Or what to do. And it’s going to be a long, painful process
of healing…
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
As difficult as it is, I completely see
God’s hand at work…just the fact that I am surrounded by people who are
wholeheartedly following God and really do care about me. I’ve also found that since I’ve opened up to
my team, I’ve been a lot more susceptible to believing Satan’s lies about
myself- my value, my worth, as well as what God thinks of me and what my
teammates think of me. So it’s really
been a battle in my mind and heart. So
please pray for me, that I wouldn’t believe lies about God, myself, and my
team. I know more than anything Satan
would like to rip my team apart, please continue to pray for unity as well.
