Nepal:
When we were told we would be teaching I immediately recalled memories from student teaching. Memories of feeling like a failure when the students didn’t grasp a lesson, or when I didn’t execute effective classroom management skills. When these memories rushed to my mind, I began to become fearful of repeating and failing. However I was encouraged that it doesn’t matter if you are successful immediately, professionals who are successful usually have had years of experience, failures and practice before they mastered their skill. The most important and encouraging fact is that I have the ability to fully rely on God’s strength and wisdom that never fails.
Walking into my classroom of five students I had a false sense of confidence in myself. Relying on my own knowledge and experience. Striving for perfection I wanted to create the perfect classroom atmosphere- where the kids would have fun, enjoy themselves and learn as well. My patience started running thin and the language barrier created more of an obstacle than I had anticipated. I walked away that day discouraged, but determined not to give up.
The next day I read the memory verses of the week and just gave it to God. Relying on His wisdom and strength to teach. With more clarity, peace and more relaxed approach it seemed easier and way more enjoyable. The more positive lessons and approaches resurfaced and by applying the theories I have learned and being more aware of the students I felt a stronger connection with the students and lesson. Joy, laughter and smiles flooded the classroom and a sense of peace and His confidence flowed from me, At the end of the day I knew exactly who deserved the praise, and it wasn’t me.
Swaziland:
Every weekday afternoon from 3:30-4:00 you would be able to find me in the kitchen teaching English to two pre-teen boys. Initially I had everything planned out, what lessons I would teach and plans of execution. Reality was that he plan of action that I had devised was not completely suitable for the students and needed to be adjusted to fit their levels and interests. Overall it was a successful class, their favorite was playing hangman and other word games. The final project was for them to write and illustrate their own stories. I really enjoyed hearing them read and watching their confidence levels grow as the month progressed.
Throughout the two months I realize that we are each given a set of skills and talents to bring honor and glorify God. I have been in denial of why I pursued a degree in Education since I change majors my sophomore year of college. At the time it was just a stepping stone to becoming a child life specialist and I never thought it would be used. As always God knew that it would be used to help further His kingdom an bring Him glory.
