whoa. whoa. whoa. whoa. whoa. whoa.
How freeing it is to actually understand freedom?!?! I have been learning so much about what this looks like in my life. This is some real talk and I hope you enjoy hearing a piece of my heart. This is so special to me. Thank you to whoever is reading this. I appreciate you. Yes, you!!!!
My most searched thing on google is How many days until September 5th 2019? I also have a countdown app on my phone that I check all the time. I. AM. SO. EXCITED. I wish I could fully express it into words. 162 days until I leave!!!!!!
WOW.
I have been wrestling with the question of is this season significant? or will I grow in this season? The World Race has been a dream of mine for so long that it is still hard for me to believe that this is really happening. Every time I say it out loud it sinks in a little deeper. I look back at the growth that I have had in this season and it has been amazing. As I look back, I almost laugh at myself that I thought this season of life wasn’t going to have significance. I had this mindset of in order to see growth I had to leave the country. (LOL but for real!) Wow I was so wrong because God continues to show up. Right here & right now.
The main thing I have grown in this year is my understanding of freedom. Freedom is something that I have always known, but never really realized that so many things in my life had been holding me back from fully experiencing the freedom that Christ has given us. I have learned that running has been a common theme in my life. If you know me, you know that I do NOT like running. I do not find running enjoyable, but with that being said I still find myself running away from so many things. I run from fear. I run from the unknown. I run from reality. I run from love. I run from pain. I run from a lot. God has convicted me (In love! because God is so loving wooooo) and has searched my heart from all the areas that I have ran from.
I can confidently say that I am tired. Running is exhausting. The Lord has been so faithful to me. He has always showed up even when I am miles away. I have ran from things and the Lord chases after me. He comes after the one. COME ON NOW HOW COOL. The God of the universe wants me. He wants you!! Okay…Okay…Just sit in awe of that & let me know how that makes you feel. WOW!
The Lord has brought so many situations in my life where I could have easily ran away, but I have learned that running doesn’t do anything. Instead I surrender and being to WALK IN FREEDOM!!!! HOW STINKIN COOL!!!! What a beautiful thing that the Lord has showed me. Guys…I am gonna be honest. This process of walking in freedom has wrecked me and changed my life. I am so thankful for a God that wants his children to feel free. He is consistently kind and so willing to carry our flaws. We are not strong enough to walk this life alone. The most precious thing about walking in freedom is that we are not alone. God provides us with beautiful brothers and sisters in Christ to encourage and (the best part!!) God walks with you. Every. Single. Step. I love feeling free! Forever we are free!!
I am done running. I am walking in freedom.
with love & joy,
Leanna Murphy <3
