“4.Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. 5.I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. 6.If anyone does not abide in me he is thrown away like a branch and withers; and the branches are gathered, thrown into the fire, and burned. 7.If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.”
—John 15:4-8
I can not get this verse off my mind
I read this verse a few days ago and it just hit me, like it was something so new and fresh. and was on repeat in my head, like a new radio hit.
In worship last week, God spoke so loudly and said “just ask me” I was confused, I didn’t know what He wanted me to ask or that there was even anything to be asked. So I kinda just let it go and tried to forget about it.
The next day He said the same thing!
“just ask me”
again, I was baffled.
THEN the next day, I was having lunch with a new friend and she just stopped mid-conversation and said “I feel like the Lord just wants you to ask Him for what you want.”
WHAT?! okay I get it. I realize this can not go on being ignored.
I read that passage again. My eyes were opened to the fact that I thought I had to work to get back in with Him. I felt like I needed to deserve His love.
Do you have moments like this? I felt like I had screwed up and I couldn’t ask Him for anything, because I had to “prove” myself to Him again.
God, my Creator, my Father- has asked me to abide in Him but He is also saying He will abide in me. That I will submit to Him, but He will submit to me, to us.
THEN ask anything you want and it will be given to you BECAUSE our hearts will be aligned, I’ll want what He wants. Our hearts beat for the same thing.
** I thought this was suppose to be like a long, difficult process to walk down- that I would have to push and strive to get there**
And all week He was saying “just ask me” because HE trusts me!
I think sometimes we want God to be more complicated.
We want life, His love, His grace and His power to be tangled and problematic.
But then when it’s not? He blows our minds with how much He genuinely and simply wants us. For nothing in return.
We, or at least I, can not handle it! Because NOTHING else I know is like that.
So I’m done– I’m done trying to fight it. I’m done making Him more complicated and putting boundaries on Him. I’m done trying to make sense of His Holiness. It’s exhausting.
I abide in Him, and He abides in me. He abides in you and you in Him.
So stop. and Just ask Him.
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