Fresh out of high school and I don’t have any plans for my future. It was enough for me to be battered all year with questions like “What are you going to do as a career?” or “Where are you going for college?” If I had a dollar for every time I was asked that, I’d probably have about sixty dollars in my pocket.
I knew that whatever career I chose I would include God in it, but I didn’t know what God had in store for me. I thought I would become a comic artist and do the usual thing of giving God the credit for it, that would be enough right? This was my dream since junior high and no one was going to change that, I was determined to fulfill my dream.
During my last year of high school was when I first felt the overwhelming love God had for me. He started to transform me and my heart burned for more of Him. The problem was that I still had Him boxed up when it came to my future. It was self destructive. I wanted to give Him my future as long as it was what I had in mind. How could I ask Him to lead me according to His will when I kept Him in my box? I felt like a failure when I was asked about my future because now I wasn’t certain, I was in a whirl of doubt and confusion because I thought I was so sure about where I was going.
After completing high school, I decided to take the first semester off from school even though many people expressed their concern for me if I did that, but I chose to do so because I wanted to get out of the confusion I put myself in.
During that summer, I witnessed people doing live worship art. It was beautiful to watch and I couldn’t take my eyes off. The music and the people worshiping made God’s presence so strong and I watched as God put it on the artist’s heart what to paint. God had placed it on my own heart what I was meant to be doing. I took God out of the box I put Him in and I gave my future, all of it, to Him. The confusion left and I had peace about the great unknown. I knew that God wanted me to go into the nations and worship Him through art. To let Him take control of this vessel and to speak through me by creating a story on canvas.
After abandoning what I thought I wanted for what I knew God had in store for me, I then searched for where He wanted me to go next. He lead me to the World Race. Upon reading about what exactly this was, I cried because I knew this is where God wanted me next.
This is the next chapter in my life. The more I think about it, the more excited I become to share the Gospel with the world. Shouldn’t I be afraid of leaving the place that is safe and comfortable for me? Shouldn’t I be afraid of leaving everyone that is close and dear to me for nine months? Shouldn’t I be afraid of going into the unknown?
These questions I asked myself and to each I am reminded of Deuteronomy 31:8 “Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.”
I now crave to get out of the box I have put myself in and to be put into uncomfortable situations that will grow my faith and my relationship with my Father. I now crave to use my gifts as worship for my God, to be used as His vessel for His glory. I now crave to share the Gospel with the lost and broken, to share the gift of God’s unconditional love. I am looking forward to this new journey God has set before me. Even though I don’t know what will happen out there, I have peace about it because I trust in my Father and I want nothing more than to obey His will for my life.
So, I guess I have one question left for myself…Am I willing to get completely wrecked by God on this journey?
HECK YES I AM!
