Just wanted to let you guys in a little on how I’m feeling about coming home soon and some things I’m struggling with!
When I first got accepted to the race and started preparing to leave, quitting my job, moving out of my apt, etc, I immediately starting worrying about what would be next for me once I finished the race. I kept telling myself that it was way too soon to be worrying about any of that and assured myself that the Lord would reveal his plans for me for the next season sometime on the race and at the latest by month 11. All I knew is that by the time I’d be going home, I’d know what was next for me and that there was plenty of time to figure it out.
I have exactly 19 days left on the race and 23 days before I arrive in MS and although I’m super excited about it and ready to see everyone, I still have no clue what’s next for me. Thankfully, there’s plenty of us that are in the same boat right now with no direction on where the Lord is wanting us next and then there are the people that know exactly what’s next for them. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a tad bit jealous. Should I go back to school? What should jobs look like? Full-time or part-time? The Lord has confirmed I’m supposed to be overseas, but what does THAT look like, how soon, and for how long? All of these questions with really no answer at this point. Is it scary? Absolutely. The idea of not knowing what’s next is honestly terrifying for me.
Community. Something I’ve learned this year is that being in a community is absolutely vital to my walk with Christ. We were created for relationships not only with Christ, but with each other. Jesus was in community with is disciples. So should we with fellow believers. What’s community supposed to look like for me when I get home and where do I find one that’s with people in somewhat the same season of life as I am? I absolutely NEED community when I get home.
Fear. It’s a real thing but it’s not from the Lord. I have to continuously give these things to the Lord and trust that He knows what he’s doing. I know that he’s not purposely holding out telling me what’s next to cause me fear or anxiety. I know there’s purpose behind it whether I know what that is right now or not. I trust Him and I trust that when HIS timing is right, He’ll reveal to me what’s next. I do know that whatever life is going to look like for me once I return, the Lord is going to be there and he’s going to provide what I need because He’s faithful and He’s good.
PLEASE be in prayer for me/us as we are transitioning home very soon and these are real things a lot of us are feeling and stressing over. Pray that the Lord will give us peace and direction for this coming season!
I will be posting a blog in the next few weeks on how to help me reenter and what you guys can do to help make it smooth for me! Can’t wait to see all of you so soon!
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough of its own.” Matthew 6:34
