We are getting team changes tomorrow and I’m very nervous, but it has forced me to think back on this team.
On my first team I felt -kind of- loved.
On this team I have felt SO loved!
On my next team, will I feel loved and accepted like I did on this one?
I’m not sure!
What I do know is that this current team of girls (Emma, Whitney, Megan, Meghan, Maria, and Amelia) have taught me sooooo much about myself.
I have gained so much confidence in who I am as a person because of these girls.
I’m in a community here, where everyday someone is telling me I’m hilarious, or pretty. People actually LIKE being around me! I’m cool! Haha
Of course at home, people love me too, but the friends I have here put so much effort in making sure that everyone feels loved. I don’t have to ask anyone to love me better. People write me random little notes that make me feel great about myself. Hearing sweet words means so much to me! It makes me want to love the people in my life to the best of my ability.
I have silly little quirks about myself. I have more quirks than the average person, but that makes me, me! You won’t be bored if you’re stuck in a room with me, because I will do something to make sure the atmosphere is light and fun.
… lol I feel like I’m writing an introduction on a dating website.
I don’t like scraping salsa on the side of the dish. I organize my food as I eat it. I turn the volume to odd numbers. I play an unhealthy amount of Spider Solitaire (but I am sooooo good at it). I say monotone jokes, and if you’re not quick enough, you’ll miss them… and that’s your fault! Haha I don’t take showers every single day. I love painting my nails! I very much enjoy getting feedback on things I could grow in. Cheese speaks straight to my soul. Small things make me happy….. literally the smallest things.
I’m not going to apologize for any of these aspects about myself. If someone is in my life and they try to make me feel less-than. I’m not going to let them! People’s reactions to what I say used to affect me a lot. If someone didn’t laugh at my joke, or made fun of the way I eat, I would immediately think that was something I needed to change about myself. But you know what? It’s not! If someone can’t accept something about me, then they can please take the closest exit, stage right. I’m not forcing anyone to stay in my life, but for some reason people want to. I’m loved!
I’m going to meet people in my life that come and go, and some people that just straight up don’t like me… and that’s okay. I have so many other people that do. I’m happy with who I am.
I still have growing to do, trust me. I definitely don’t think I’m the most attractive looking person, but the longer I’m here, the more I learn to love physical aspects about myself as well. I mean, I get hit on from random people all across the world, haha they must see something desirable in me! I have really amazing hair! I wake up in the morning and don’t do anything at all to it, and it falls nicely! I’ve only brushed my hair once since Thanksgiving! Hahaha I like the color of my eyes 🙂 I like my hands a lot. I have nice curves. These are things I never, ever would have said before the World Race began.
It’s hard to love the way you look on the World Race. You sweat 24/7, you never blow dry, straighten, or curl your hair. You never wear make up. You’ve been wearing the same 5 outfits for a year… it’s difficult.
But!
The Lord made me in his image. If I hate on myself, basically I’m just saying that what the Lord created isn’t good enough. What an insult to God! He put a lot of care into creating me, because He loves me more than anyone <3
Genesis 1:27
So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.
Psalm 139:14
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
Ephesians 5:29
After all, no one ever hated their own body, but they feed and care for their body, just as Christ does the church.
Now there is a huge difference in loving yourself and being boastful and proud. I’m not trying to be that way either.
2 Timothy 3:1-4
…People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God.
Proverbs 16:5
The Lord detests all the proud of heart. Be sure of this: They will not go unpunished.
Galatians 6:3
If anyone thinks they are something when they are not, they deceive themselves.
You probably won’t see me write something like this about myself ever again. However, I’m writing this now because I’ve grown so much in this department. I’m proud of who I am. I’m blessed to have wonderful friends in my life, and the BEST FAMILY EVERRRR.
But people are very blessed to have me too!!!
Thank you God, for helping me realize this about myself 🙂 I’m worth something because of You.
