A cool blue night displaying a dessert skyline lit up by twinkling stars under a glowing half moon-
The first streaks of color; orange, pink and yellow, painted across the promise of the rising sun-
Powerful stretching redwoods laced with rich green leaves reaching toward the heavens-
Mighty yet gentle turqoise waves bouncing across the steady surface of a soft ocean on a cloudy day-
A sharp massive rock seated at the base of a tall, strong mountain firmly standing it's ground-
Peace
Joy
Hope
Comfort & Love
Strength & Power
I cannot remember when it changed, maybe it was Saturday night itself, but it has changed indeed. Let me begin with an explanation.
These past days, weeks, months, I've faced internal struggles I had begun to lose hope would end anytime soon. Then I reached a point where all I had left to do was repeatedly cry out to God for a change, for help. It was then I realized how completely helpless I am even in my own walk with the Lord. I cannot even love God on my own. How strange it is to think of asking the one you love for help simply to continue loving them.
I needed to learn that I was, yet again, depending on myself. I needed to lay myself down before the feet of Jesus. I needed to accept the invitation to crawl into the Father's lap and rest in His arms. I can say I'm beginning to understand. Beginning to live this way. But I know now that each day I will face the same challenge and decision to live by grace out of the life I have recieved through His death and resurrection.
So then stuff started to happen. I found myself at a friend's Bible study suddenly overcome by amazing peace. I just basked in it. With that peace came this feeling of love and joy that only God can give. It was wonderful. I can't express how wonderful. I was able to just be in His presence. Just be. Then it started to happen. Visions?
I'm still not sure I believe it myself. Though I know I haven't experienced anything like it before. I began to see, one by one, over the next couple hours a series of what I can only call visions of the pictures described above as well as many others. I saw pictures and felt their meaning, I just knew. Which, now that I think about it, is ironic. Just days ago I expressed to someone that I didn't want an equation to explain the magnitude of God's love, I wanted to be taken to the top of a mountain at sunrise to stare at the wonder of His creation. God knows the inner workings of our hearts.
I also saw images expressing God's love toward me in ways just for me to understand.
While we prayed and spoke truth I saw several images that went along with the truths being spoken about God, the battle and the fight against our old, dead selves. One in particular showed a blind folded man in the dark taking swings at a limp dead body just because there was a voice shouting out that the dead man was fighting back. Just like the Enemy tries to tell us we still have to defeat our old selves. But we are a NEW creation! Victory is ours. Now.
There's actually a lot more to share about for the week. Wow, come to think of it, I'm almost blown away how it all happened so suddenly yet stealthly. In perfect timing. God is good, and He is faithful. He always has a plan, He always has it under control. And He is so worthy of praise and worship. Oh, and His love is the best. It's worth pursuing Him every single day. That's what I've learned this week. Poof! As I aptly like to say when a mind gets blown. Just wait, it has a better affect in person. Til next time-
P.s. Thank you for the prayers everyone! Love-
