I look at all of the blogs and notice a pattern. "Why am I doing this?" I honestly was trying to get ideas of how I should write my blog. (after a while i thought it was funny i was getting ideas about my own thoughts) , but two things stood out to me very much. One; who am i writing for and Two; why AM I going on this trip.
I think lately I've been doing some self seeking, trying to re-figure out who i am (I'm not sure if re-figure is a word but o well lol) one thing I have noticed is that I am a people pleaser. now when this phrase people-pleaser comes up, as a Christian some may say that it isn't a bad trait to have its actually a good things but i feel so many times we over look it when It turns bad, and what i mean by that is when you begin taking the form of other's desires rather than who God created you to be. I'm not your typical girl i guess you could say. When meeting me I tend to be very energized and hyper but very few people realize that I am also a very deep thinker (along with being indecisive because of that lol) but the reason I am saying this is because I feel that at times I get criticism on what I write but (i will admit i do get defensive) but when writing I tend to be a vulnerable person and that what I would like my blog to be RAW. A reason why i believe I need to be Is because God has been breaking down my walls bit by bit and i feel this is one way He has provided me to allow others to enter in instead of having me mask things and not allow others to really see me.
lol this brings me to number two the reason; why am I doing this. I feel I would like other racers to see that we are all very different and I do not want other racers to feel alone. (But anyway)
When reading my bible I have always came across Matthew 28:19 which is the great commission. When I read it I just felt this strong desire to do exactly what the disciples did. I have been on missions trips in the past and i loved them but I've never been on anything like this! More scripture began surfacing and as i read I noticed that the way Jesus described how the disciples were going to do there ministry " take nothing for the journey except a staff- no bread, no bag, no money on your belt wear sandals but no extra tunic. when ever you enter a house stay there until you leave that town….they drove out many demons and anointed many sick people with oil and healed them." Mark 6:8-13. . I began feeling spiritually overwhelmed and happy and somewhat tearing up I felt honored and proud to be serving such an amazing God and to know that I Laynie Marie O'Neill was going to be able to serve the Lord like His disiples once did. I still have that hope that I will with my heavenly Father and my brothers and sisters we all will fulfill this Command . I am so excited and blessed to be a part of this and see the love shown from everyone along the way. Thank you all 
