Tug and pull
That is what I am doing
with
my Father
back and forth
tug and pull.
Not wanting to fully do what He is calling me to.
Sell your things he says,
really all of it? I say
yes, he says
no, I say
yes
no
back and forth.
I finally say, ok.
Ok is
half-hearted
not
fully submitting to
His will.
Your things are more important then I am to you.
No they are not, I say
Yes they are, He says
Then why are you not willing to sell them
and
let them go?
A smack in the face.
Reality
comes quick and fast
thinking my apartment full of things that has been in storage for way to long
has no hold on me
because
they
do.
I have longed to have a home of my own,
but
my home is not what I think it is going to be.
God
is calling me
to
move and move and not settle in this next season.
Come away with me, Lauren
but
that is what this year was about, I say.
Lauren
this is what your whole life is about.
Come away with me to places you can only imagine.
You know those dreams I have been reawakening in you all this year?
I am opening doors for you.
All you have to do is
walk
through them.
Come away with me, Lauren
but
What about my niece?
trust me.
What about wanting my own home?
trust me.
What about my cats?
trust me.
What about my family, friends?
trust me.
back and forth
tug
and pull.
