It’s ironic as I write this that I’m the Storyteller leader on my team…. The one that is to encourage others in their storytelling journey while on this year long journey and create that safe place for them to help and guide them along the way.
I’m sitting here in Malaysia on the island of Langkawi just totally in awe at all that is stirring in my heart right now as he’s taking me on a storytelling journey of my own. He’s calling me to change the trajectory of my story. To write his story and not my perception. Ultimately I have the pen, but he has the words, he’s the author of my story, he’s just calling me to write and live it out in the way he has so beautifully written. I have truly been on a faith journey unlike anything I’ve ever experienced in my life. The Lord has been working on my heart in ways I never could have imagined. Up until this point these past couple of months have been revelation after revelation of how distorted I have allowed my story to become. Letting go of old mindsets and lies that you have been allowing in for so long, it’s a process….. But there is so much grace in the process I’m realizing as I navigate this. This is like a rebirthing of sorts. He’s allowing me to fully start the healing in so many areas of my life. So much freedom as one-by-one I’m letting go of things that have been holding me down for so long.
I strive and want to be the Lauren that God sees and to walk in the security of my identity in him. I am his BELOVED. I claim that truth and take hold of my authority over my role in the kingdom, which he slowly and prayerfully hoping he will reveal to me over the course of being out on the mission field. His purpose for my life and YOURS is one of intentionality and a lot of love went behind his plan and path for my life. That in and of itself brings me so much comfort and peace. The atmosphere of my life is drastically changing as he continues to reveal who I am in him. He is so gentle in that pursuit as we walk this out and figure it out together. He’s faithfully been walking beside me each and every single day, even on those days surrounded by community where I’ve felt alone, he’s always reminding me that not for one second has he ever left my side these past couple of months.
The journey of exploring his love and character is one I never want to stop being on. He is and always will be enough. As I’m letting you in on the ministry aspects of the race, the fun adventures, I feel it’s also so incredibly important to share with you what is going on in my heart and be vulnerable with where my heart posture is, because it only allows me to do this mission well when I’m honest with myself and honest with you.
I was sitting with the Lord today and he gave me a creative prayer and one that you could be covering me with.
- Make my mountains tremble
- Awaken my gifts that have yet to be revealed
- Love like I’ve never loved before
- Ask, know what I need and ask God
- Yes spirit
- Stay in obedience
- Impact the ground I walk on
- Accept and love myself exactly the way I am
This is my Malaysia prayer. So come behind me on this and call these out on my behalf. Also, for my team this is strictly ATL month (Ask the Lord). We showed up in Malaysia with no assigned ministry, agenda, and literally no place to stay as we are traveling all over the country. We obviously have found a place to stay, ha, but we are fully giving God the reigns every day we wake up and asking him to show us and direct us how to minister in the way he sees fit for that day. This island is amazing, beautiful, and filled with so many great people and he’s already showed up in so many incredibly sweet ways for all of us. So pray that for each of us we silence our own voices so we can clearly hear his as we walk out this month.
Month 3, let’s do this!!!! Much love to you ALL 🙂
