As we are about to head into month 5 and as I shared with new teams, say wha????? I reflect on these past 4 months on the mission field; they have been some of the hardest, beautiful, messy, confusing, revealing, amazing (and really insert any other adjective you can think of) months of my life. I think we are all craving newness to be honest. We are at the point and starting to head into the middle of this journey where we are just tired. We are out of the honeymoon phase and stuck somewhere in the middle where the end is not yet in sight. I’m excited for this upcoming week of debrief and to rest, be refreshed and rejuvenated to finish the next two months in Africa strong.
I wanted to share the biggest revelation God has given me over the last months……
{{DRUMROLL PLEASE}}
I HAVE A VOICE!
Okay; I know, I know… Anticlimactic… hahaha!!! But y’all this is huge for me. I’ve spent my whole life trying to find this voice I knew I had all along but just didn’t know what to do with it, or feeding into the lies of the enemy saying “Your voice has no value, it’s not worth sharing, so why bother?”
A FLAT OUT LIE STRAIGHT FROM HELL.
Mind blown as God has been walking me through this process and as my team has been walking beside me in helping me and encouraging me in letting that voice be heard in all nations and even when I get back to the states. It doesn’t just stop when I leave the mission field. Missions is life and life is missions! God is just so gentle, kind and patient as I’m trying to figure this out.
In walking this path to finding my voice he’s used that in intricate ways in ministry. This month, just wow! It’s looked a lot like this.
Praying for people, lots of prayer. Sometimes I saw healing and for God’s reason alone sometimes I didn’t this month. I had the opportunity to pray for this woman’s eyesight this week. He’s been teaching me so much while praying healing for others when desiring healing of my own with my hearing! It’s been inviting God’s presence in like an open door. It’s allowed me to take the focus off myself and put it onto others and to daily have a heart of gratitude. It’s asking him to come like never before. It’s believing in breakthrough and that by faith a miracle is coming, our hope in what’s above and that the best is yet to come. What a wonderful God we have the privilege of serving! And that I get to spend my life relentlessly pursuing him.
I’ve found my voice and courage in prayer. To pray BOLD prayers and walking confidently into the throne room with complete faith in God’s power and knowing he is who he says he is.
How he loves so extravagantly and I’m seeing firsthand the depths of his love for his children as I travel across the world. In finding my own voice I can help others find theirs. For the first time in my life I’m genuinely feeling in the deepest part of my soul my heart break for what breaks his. May that never stop and only allow my voice to be continually used louder and louder.
“Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us.” Ephesians 3:20
Much love to you all! Talk to you all from Swaziland 😉
