The first month of the World Race is coming to an end and I want to share what I have learned in Belize!
When I got off the plane at the beginning of the month I could hardly believe I was FINALLY on the World Race. I raised the money, bought my backpack, and said all the hard goodbyes.. I was READY to be a World Racer! I was so excited about all the new things I was going to learn, all the new ministry opportunities, team time, and meeting new people.
It took me and my team what seemed like forever to open up to one another and to adjust to living life in Belize!
Since I arrived here I have felt almost completely disconnected from God.. like what in the world?!?! That’s something I was NOT expecting to happen. I was so confused because I’m doing exactly what I am supposed to do.. I told God “I’m here doing what you want me to do. I gave up my comforts and time with my friends and family for an entire year to tell others about You and now you’re ignoring me?”
I discovered God for myself near the end of 2016 and that changed my life and who I am as a person. Through 2017 I encountered God in ways I never thought was possible! That is why I wanted to go on the World Race.. to go around the world to tell others about what God has done in my life so that they might choose to have Him apart of their life too!
But here I am writing this blog on my blow up sleeping mat on the floor of a preschool in Belize..
on the World Race…
Hello, I’m here God. Where are you?
This month has been amazing don’t get me wrong.. But this has been the theme of this month for me,
“God, why you playin hard to get?”
I have learned that God isn’t just a feeling. I’m not always going to be floating on a cloud of cotton candy with God by my side feeding me slices of pizza.
Sometimes it can feel that good. In 2017 I felt Gods presence in my life and I felt so close to Him. I was on the cotton candy cloud so much more than I deserved that year. But I asked Him to grow my faith to make me stronger and I believe that is exactly what He is doing right now. I know that He hasn’t left me. Not even for a second. If you have accepted Him into your life, He will never leave you or forsake you either. My God is a God of His word. I am choosing to trust in Him. I will stay persistent and continue to seek Him no matter what I “feel” because I know He will not keep me in this season forever.
If you feel the same way I do right now I hope this blog has encouraged you to know that you are not alone when you feel this way, but God is worth pursuing even when we aren’t rewarded with His presence. Because He is GOOD.
ALL THE TIME.
“And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.” -Deuteronomy 31:16
