But it's beautiful. I don't have to stay there. I will not stay there. My Father has made me alive. He speaks to me. He has called me to a higher standard despite myself.
I am renewed.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day." 2 Corinthians 4:16
I am His child.
"The spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs-heirs to God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in His sufferings in order that we may also share in His glory." Romans 8:16,17
I am justified by His blood.
"But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God." 1 Corinthians 6:11
So here it is, God. I give up. You can have me. You are all my soul so desperately thirsts for.
I won't fight You anymore. I'll open my hands and let go. You have always been my One and Only.
I trust You with my heart, my life, my past, present and future. You are more.
I don't deserve You, but You have made me new despite myself. I'm sorry it took so long for me to see.
How beautiful that You don't hold grudges. You have already forgiven my pride.
How breathtaking are You my Lover. You whisper "I have captured your heart."
I am broken, but You have never left my side.
I am callused, but You see through my defense.
Where You have me isn't any place I want to be, but because You are with me I am free.
Because You love me I will never be alone.
You don't see the flaws of my outward appearance. You don't see my imperfections that the world magnifies.
