Sorry I haven’t blogged in awhile! It’s been a crazy couple of weeks. Our last week of ministry in Haiti got interrupted by Hurricane Sandy. We were rained in for a couple of days and ended up not being able to cross the boarder to Dominican Republic for debrief, so we debriefed at a missionary compound in Port-au-Prince for a few days.
Awesome beautiful sunset after it finally stopped raining after Hurricane Sandy! Thanks Chris for the photo!
Just in those few days God spoke so much to me. One night our squad coaches Jay and Denise spoke to us about the wounds that men give. It resulted in the men of our squad going around to every girl saying sorry for any man who’s hurt them and saying sorry for not looking at them with God’s eyes. It was one of the most powerful nights of my life. Here are just some of the things that were said to me.
I’m sorry for all of the Christian men in your life who never stood up for you.
I’m sorry for looking at you the way the world does and not the way Jesus does.
I’m sorry for the men who have disappointed you.
I’m sorry that you weren’t treated the way you deserved to be treated.
I’m sorry for not treating you the way you need to be treated.
I’m going to set a standard for you that shows you the way you deserve to be treated.
I’m sorry I made it feel like it was your fault.
From this night I realized how much bitterness I had towards certain men and how much I needed to forgive. I’ve been walking around with wounds that refused to heal because my forgiveness was only surface level. God revealed to me how much freedom there is in forgiveness. It’s not going to happen overnight and it’s not going to be easy, but if I am going to strive to be the woman that God created me to be, I need to be free.
