I woke up at four this morning with a cramp in my leg. With five hours of sleep under my belt, I crawled out of my tent and made my way, by moonlight, to the bathroom and back. As I climbed back into my tent, I prayed and asked God why he had awakened me so suddenly and began to pray for my teammates as I fell back asleep.
A few hours later, I awoke again and remembered it was valentines day. As I sat there eating Dominican cookies and a Snickers bar, I read the cards my parents had sent with me and began to cry. I miss them. I miss my Mom and Dad and I miss my sisters.
As the tears came, I let them fall. I’m going to be away from the people that I love the most for a long time, but I get the honor of serving a God who loves me so much more than my family or my parents ever could. His love is flawless – it’s unending.
As I sat on a beach today with my squad mates all around me, it became clear why he’d awakened me this morning. As I walked up the steps to the bathroom, it could have been as if I was the only one in the world. All was quiet. No one was awake. The moon was out and the stars were bright. God was singing His love over me. He was singing His love over me as if I were the only one in the world. And the cool thing is that His love for me is so abundant that He does love me as if I really am the only one in the world. His love is a love that goes beyond borders, languages, and backgrounds. It never stops serving. It never stops sacrificing. It never stops healing. It never ends.
Thanks to all my supporters!
Happy Valentines Day, Dad, Mom, Layna, and Ang! I love and miss you all!
