My name is Lauren and I met myself at 22.
On January 17 of this year, I sat on my bed eager to write, and yet without much to say. So I sat just talking with God, waiting for some direction and finally given I wrote:
It really is such an easy and oftenly asked question, and yet I found myself utterly baffled. “What do you want to be when you grow up?” My easy and often repeated anwser is, and for the last 12 years has been, a politician. In the more recent years the answer has expanded, inviting a specification to foreign relations into the mix, but consistant to my eager commitment at the age of 10. I started my History and Political Science major my freshman year and never once even considered changing it, interned in a state sentator’s office, and still hold fast to my ambitions, and yet, what do i want to be? “Secretary of State,” has been my long maintained dream job, but could I do that? Will I want that? Yes? See! And even if all doubt in my “dream” as I have so ambiguously held onto for so long is removed, is that what I want?………….
Rather than ruin my sanity obsessing over THAT I decided to focus on my original question instead. What do I want to do?
I want to write. fiction, simple rhetoric, or who knows whaaaat. I just want to be able to write.
I want to speak. I want to speak truth, enlightenment, GOD, faith, LOVE, snd sense into people. Not just city, not just this state, not any limit. I want to speak to and with as many people as I can. Not for any narcissitic pleasure or fame, though my eagerness can appear as such, but because what I believe in has nothing to do with me, but is everything I am about. I believe in a God who is limitless, unfailing, constant, and eternal. And that is the love I want to spread as far and as wide as I can.
I do not want to preach sermons though of speak from a church institution. I want to speak to everyone, and shows the ways in which my faith is founded in logic and is just as plausible and infinitely greater than any alternative.
I want to speak a REVOLUTION in this World.
I want to change the way people think. Think about themselves, eachother, everyone, everything.
I want to live a life that points to God and show others how to do the same. And I want to help as many people as I can.
I want to study and learn about, and from, as many different people groups so that I may better learn how to promote a world unity, a vast consesus to LOVE.
I do not however really want to spend much, if any, time in an office. Nor do I want to deal with the tedious expectations and fakeness of our country or any other counrty’s so called “politics.”
